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So i’m gonna be on my way to Bakersfield in a few minutes. Ahh…. I’m sooo excited but still nervous. Yeah today is probably gonna be the last time I eat chicken, and drink coffee and go to sleep late. haha. And sleep in too! Oh wow. But yeah. Goodbye Tumblr. Goodbye House. Ahhh. [=

Ahhh!! I can’t believe I’m leaving the comforts of my home in like 2 days practically. Time flies. Ugh. Well i’m gonna talk about how finals went cause yeah. All I really gotta say is that I’m pretty happy with how everything went, well im still not so sure about World History but we’ll see. I had so much fun that week, studying with Abraham and Stephanie. haha. [= But then it was also a sort of sad week. Cause yeah. :( Well over-all it was good, i failed Algebra 2 but I already knew I was going to anyways. So yeah. Whatever. Yesterday and today I went to school with my brother. Gosh some or actually most little kids are sooo adorable. Omg. Today was funner though cause I actually got to hang out with them more and help them out in stuff. Matt is definitely one of the cutest little white boys i’ve ever met. haha. And Tomohiro, Mehrzad and Giselle and Eliya. All of them. haha. Yeah today was really good. Went to McDonalds, haven’t been there for about 3 months. I hate it, it’s gross and makes me sick. But I was craving chicken nuggets and a mocha. So yeah. That was cool. Oh and so far I haven’t eaten beef for 2 weeks and a day. It’s hard at times, like when my family made carne asada, but looking at my Dad who made it but didn’t eat it, inspired me. haha. It smelled so good though! But i’m proud of myself for resisting. (: Well now I gotta go start packing stuff and mentally preparing myself for this difficult journey just ahead of me. Bye!

I guess my mistake was being so naive, yeah…. I have always trusted people so easily only to get hurt in the end. I guess I always thought people were as honest as me. For me honesty is like a big deal but apparently for other people it isn’t. I’m so glad my eyes have been opened but i won’t lie it still stings to see the truth. hah. And to think someone could be a good friend even after they cheat themselves by cheating on tests and things. I was so wrong. Everyone who i thought was my friend, really wasn’t all this time. The reason I’m still going this summer is to save myself from me. I don’t wanna even imagine what I would do without people watching me intently. Or actually I do wanna imagine but I don’t actually wanna go through with it. It’s not worth it, it’s selfish…and thats just not me. I don’t want to hurt people who actually care about me because of my selfishness. If pain let’s you know you’re alive, well then i’m pretty darn alive right now. haha.

Today was so fun! Got to school watched everyone do their shirts while taking in all that toxic stuff. hah. Valerie’s shirt was a fail at first but then we fixed it. x) Then we practiced “She Was Mine” with Carissa, Valerie and Aki. Got to the park, ugh. 4-way soccer was okay when we were against the Freshmen but Juniors, omg. That was scary. Tyler, and Keith especially. =/ And capture the flag was fun too but again the Juniors were really agressive. haha. Then lunch was good. Today was cool cause I actually talked to Luke, I seriously never talk to him. It’s sad. But yeah. Oh he’s gonna do the beatboxing part for Sunday Morning. We hired him. Oh and Valerie made me a “flower child headband.” [= I love her, she’s cool. Then we were rolling down the hills, it hurt, and I got a mini headache. -__- And my hippie name is Summer Rain. (= Luke gave it to me. He’s like the main hippie person (in our little “hippie” group) who assigns all the names to people. haha. Valerie is Strawberry Sunshine. Yeah then when I got home I was so tired I took a 2 hour nap. (: And I found out I’m going to be in Bakersfield in the summer with Aki and William. Yay! (: And that is how my super awesome day went. (: And I got a sunburn….haha.

Well today was meh. Yesterday I had a huggge migraine so i went to sleep at 9. Havent done that in forever. So i woke up late but rested. (: Then on my way to school we had to stop cause some lady hit a boy on a bicycle. It was scary but he got up and he wasn’t seriously injured but STILL, he got hurt. =/ Got to school, took the test, fail. Then chapel was so cool. Omg. Tyler looked just like Reuben from behind. It was soo cool. I was like yay another Reuben! x) But yeah then drama went okay. The end of the play is sort of corny but we’re working on it. Probably failed the history test. haha. Yupp. Then we had drama afterschool. Pointless, it’s still corny. Then Andres, Abby and I had an interesting talk about marriage, and kids and stuff. haha. Then my Mom came to pick me up we went to In-n-Out. [= Then she said that i was gonna go get a haircut, so we went. I like it but she gave me pretty short bangs. But it’s okay, HAIR GROWS. Then we bought pan at this panaderia that I used to go to when I was little. Memories. :( I bought a cookie with a smiley face on it. Mmm. Then we went to McDonalds got a decaf coffee. Did the Sudoku thing. (: It was fun but it took like 4 times till I got it. Up until then my day was pretty good. I won’t mention the -__- parts that happened later. Cause thats dumb. haha.

(: Today was a pretty good day. Woke up pretty late as usual. haha. Then got to school. Chapel was a fail cause none of us Sophomores participated. Only Larissa. I love her. But yeah that was sad. haha. Then work and then Valerie, Kevin, Thomas and I didnt have to do gymnastics. (: So we worked on Biology homework. Oh and drama… well I think the play we’re working on might work out to be ehh okay-ish. So thats good. Then after me and my friend talked which is always good, Matthew 18:15. (: Algebra 2. -__- Anyways, yeah I really like history now. Cause I actually pay attention and also I get to talk to people I dont usually talk to like Charles, and Matthew and Thomas. It’s fun, we’re like always laughing. hehe. Yeah and today at the meeting. Courtney is such a sweet girl, like always. (: Oh and after I was telling my Dad about robot day and he was, i guess ,atttempting to do the robot. haha. That was cute. Like funny cute. Oh and then we went to Baskin Robbins. Mmm. (: So yeah today was fun. Even though I miss him. But yeah. =/  hah. Now I gotta go do homework still. Bleh.